You don’t wanna know
But you’ll always be
His girl
When you hit her
And it felt like a kiss
Was it pure bliss?
Because you didn’t hit him
So baby, you don’t win
BPD riddled in me
Fuckin’ around
With every boy in town
Pump me full of drugs
I can see the light in
Heaven
Even though I’ve
Surrounded myself with mugs
Throwin’ up the nourishment
The torment of your punishment
He loves you
Wrote a song about you
In capital letters
The way he does
Fragmented particles
Eyes fluttering
Butterfly spirit lives
Pacified patience
Scattered souls
Drifting like wood
In lonely oceans
Trust obliterated
By a self destructive force
To push you as far as oblivion
So you would want nothing
To do with me
To never see me
I would create that
Scenes of carnage
As love unfolds
And the fear created
In those veins
From a brain
Channelling another universe
Of sound
None of this was necessary
Obsession is an understatement
Which would never have
Happened
If I saw you
Chilled
Cool
Easy
Freedom
I see them
The people I fall for
My first love
My second love
They’re my friends
It’s easier, better
But they’re nothing like you
I guess I’ve never done anything like this before
You think you know
Me
That isn’t me
That is a manifestation
Of someone broken
Due to lack of connection
Starved of the energy
I need to keep going
Safety
You wouldn’t even understand
How dangerous it’s been
How scary it can get
Fear me?
Fear my words?
You wouldn’t if you knew me
If you were my friend
You might come to understand
Who I am
Not the person you think I am
‘Keep her at bay’
‘How do you deal with rejection?’
Boy, you do like to test us
But I don’t blame you
With that mind of yours
Look up to the wisdom of
The giraffe
She might make you laugh
Tiny Alice
Bouncing around
Through the letterbox
And down to the sea
Feel nothing for her
Good
Don’t you see how safe that is
For me
Ravished by the flames of desire
With a schism of a vicious tone
Calling me in 2017
With no idea of what had happened
Or where I’d been
Only your song and your life
The thought ‘she’ll love it’
Which I did
But the switch in your head
And the bitch in your bed
Lead you to tangle your own web
The mess on their plates
The weapons at the gates
Tearing through the flesh
The slap that feels like a kiss
Makes me understand the porn
You watch
I set the stage on fire
Tears keep pouring from my eyes
Because he loves me like a waterfall
Not you
You just want to be left alone
So I watch your life in slow motion
Grumpy old man
Who once had a plan
The dream
You make me wanna scream
The frustration of every word
Every reverb in these hospital corridors
But what was the point?
I think we’ve all forgotten
I’ve forgiven all of you
And myself
You still have a lot of work to do
When we don’t see each other
What is the point in life?
Honestly, truthfully
What is the fucking point?
All the thoughts
All their messages
All the decisions
All the reasons
You regret them all when you’re 72
But there we are
It’s just one of your fates
I told you to hate me
I can see you beating me up
In my visions
Leave you alone
But Will, he never will
Reach out to me
Why would the Knight of Swords
The fake and the liar
Want to face the truth
The beauty of youth
Leave it all in the past
Boy, she’s too fast
Slow as a snail
Magic luminous trail
Dancing and singing every word
Lost in dimensions
And different verbs
I’m being set free tomorrow
‘Her’
I think that’s how they refer to me
Why are you so obsessed with linear time?
Have you forgotten you’re already
Dead
The energy of lateral time
Might be what you’re looking for
It’ll bring the rain
So many scripts
So much editing
The trailers
But I am obsessed with the scores
The flaws
The laws
The doors
Every string
Every note
Perfectionistic
Across America
There is a lot going on
The global film industry
The Pentagon
The White House
Sensei
Every blade of grass
Palace secrets
Tibetan Time
I will never reveal
The whole truth
As some wisdom
Should remain with the stars
Teeth shattering
Ice all around me
Lips are blue
Toes are black
Survival
What a life
For yes I have frozen to death
Ate human
Eat me
What we do to survive
Frozen to the core
Eskimos
What millennia are we in?
The Ice Age
Lateral Time
2024
Why is my nickname PALICE?
For we need ICE
I can feel the ice caps melting
I can feel the earthquakes
I can feel the hurricanes
I can feel the tornadoes
I can feel the tsunamis
The Empress
My tarot
On my birthday
30th September 1983
In The Secret Language of Birthdays
Earth Goddess
Constantly trying to get the currents in the ocean to move again
Temperatures rising
Every time zone
Alone
In the killer whales
Telling me what’s going on
The Polar Bears
Stare
Alice
Mary
Palau
Stare
Your truthful glare
There
In the Amazon
Cutting down our trees
Our medicine
Our lungs
For what?
Soya
Cattle
Money
I will remind you what the chief said:
‘Only when the last tree has died and the last river has been poisoned and the last fish has been caught will we realise that we cannot eat money’
It is collective psychosis
On a colossal scale
Can you not see how you’ve been brainwashed?
To make money
To buy
To invest
To keep the unfair economy going
You have no idea how determined I am
How fearless I am
I know how determined some of you are
Paralympians
Olympians
I will write about you
I truly love your determination
So far not one doctor
Not one patient
Not one lawyer
Has reached out to help me
Are they scared?
Concerned the case would take over their lives?
Together we are stronger
Strength in numbers
When we join forces
We are extremely powerful
More powerful than any establishment
Rosa Parks
Martin Luther King
History has proven this time and time again
There are more of us than them
People being tortured
I am aware of them
People being raped
I am aware of them
People with guns to their heads
I am aware of them
I am aware of you all
So please join me
Help me
I will do the work
Teamwork makes the dream work
Whatever it takes to prove every case globally
You say you care
But do you care enough?
SAS
SIS
Everything you do never goes unnoticed
🙏
The Secret Language of Birthdays
Is like my Bible
May Twenty-Seventh
The Day of Driven Dedication
Happy Birthday
There is so much in this book
Astronomy
Astrology
Numerology
Tarot
Health
Advice
Meditation
Strengths
Weaknesses
I can’t tell you how much work I did last night
A&E
Suicidals
Alcoholics
NHS
On its knees
She bleeds
Paediatrics
Geriatrics
Every hospital
Everyone who’s sick
I can hear them
Sense them
Feel them
‘Save us’
Melancholy
Patch Adams is right
We need comedians
We need animal therapy
People need sanctuaries
It’s a total disgrace the Priory has become about money
The route of all evil
Yes I am fully aware of what money can buy
But money has taken over
Do the tribes have money?
No
Have you asked yourselves why?
This is collective psychosis
Sometimes I feel like the sanest woman on the planet
Ironic isn’t it
Holy Mary Mother of God
As River used to say
Trillionaires, billionaires, millionaires
We need to work together
Men and women
Equality
We need each other
Respect one another
Malaria
Wasps
They never used to exist
There is too much evil in this world
Armageddon
BRING IT ON
Questions
Answers
Problems
Solutions
Channel it
Tree medicine
Poppy plant
Coke plant
Powerful plants
Channel your medicine
Some say ‘chemo saved my life’
No, it prolonged your life
The amount of spirits around me is undeniable
Chemo killed some of them
Immune systems
Every time zone
2024
You know the score
God, I feel raw
Sentient animals
Sentient plants
The circle of life
The animal kingdom
Herbivores
Omnivores
Carnivores
Every blood group
During one of my psychoses
There were these children
With rare blood
They could breathe in carbon dioxide
And breathe out oxygen
They are trees
Do they exist?
Trust me, through my library of past lives
I’ve seen all kinds of things
You wouldn’t believe what I’ve witnessed
Facial analysis
Tongue analysis
Chinese medicine
George Monkhouse
Acupuncture
Pulse reading
Refracting you
8.2 billion people
Zillions of animals
Mating in heaven
Bringing about the new species
Under the ocean
Under the sand
No, you cannot touch them
No, you cannot reach them
No, you cannot name them
For there they are safe
Life
What a miracle
Diagnosis
Psychosis
But what are they experiencing?
What are their psychoses teaching them?
PLEASE, let them go through it
They are important
Vital processes
Teachings
Lessons
Just help them sleep if need be
Romeo and Juliet
That remedy
That tincture
Please, remember
Please
We know how to help people sleep
Benzodiazepines are highly addictive
They want you to be dependent on these medications
Addictions
Afflictions
Watching the markets
Like an eagle
Pharmaceuticals
It’s written in your cuticles
Psychopaths are running this world
I know what the Eskimos would do
Kill them instantly
With a bow and arrow
Maybe a knife
But I decided to take a different route
So they experience what they have inflicted
Psychosis
Eaten alive by rats
The plague
Why did you make me vague?
Damage my memory
Scar my body
When I could no longer remember my dance routines
I felt completely stupid
Couldn’t think straight
Couldn’t do my A-levels
Gained so much weight
Lost my balance
Sit with the geeks, the freaks, the goths, the lonely person
They created God’s wrath in me
It is the devil’s work at best
Money making machines
Every acidic chemical
How does it truly feel to be you?
Like The Sacklers
Bring in the snakes
Their worst nightmares
For they will suffer
Hell
You deserved it!
The amount of deaths
The amount of damage
And permanent deformities
Do you know suffering is worse than death
A blessed release
But they are telling my spirit their stories
I am a medium for a reason
What is your spirit animal?
Do you relate to a butterfly, a humming bird, a dragon fly, a whale, a silver back gorilla, a dinosaur, a tiger, a camel, a mule, a bee, a springbok, a deer, wild boar, a worm, a snail, their magic trail, a killer whale, a leopard, a cheater, giraffe, make me laugh
The ones in cages
Oh, the rages
I can feel their depression
Which we have created
Open the cages
Throw down your weapons
Hug each other
Love each other
Heal each other
The children going back to school
Please don’t leave anyone
Sitting alone
If the ring leader is a bully
She is probably struggling at home
Do not follow the crowd
Herd community
Get to know everyone in your class
Never leave anyone alone
If you see someone being picked on, put a stop to it
I give you my strength
Please, always be kind
For you never know what people are going through
If they are obese
They need love and healing
Guidance
Please do not judge them
You do not know their stories
Their feelings
Why feel sorry for an anorexic, bulimic
But mock the overweight?
We need to educate each other
On health
Diet
Greens
Alkalise
Listen to your body
Social media
Use it wisely
I can see how you all use it
It’s fascinating really
The likers
The watchers
The commenters
The ghost watchers
The stalkers
I know you all
I get it
But please trolls
The tolls of the lives you are hurting
You have to ask yourselves
What has happened in their lives
To act the way they do
Saving lives
Why would you like to be a doctor?
Would you like to save lives?
Would you like to be a musician?
An astronaut?
An environmentalist?
A script writer?
A poet?
A rapper?
An artist?
Why are they on the streets?
My heart beats
For I love you
I care
Psychopaths
Narcissists
My truthful glare
I am fearless
Tearless?
No
I cry
But my tears heal me
I care about your feelings
The disabled
Special needs
Carers
There are so many good people in this country
So many amazing people
Unsung heroes
Pride of Britain Awards
They make me cry so much
They make me so proud
To have chosen to be born in this country
For you do not earn
Much money
But everything you do never goes unnoticed
Everything you do is noted
God
The Gods
The Goddesses
Your spirit guides
Your angels
Maybe you need an exorcist
To rid yourself of that demon
That possession
God’s speed
Supernatural activity
I can feel it
I can sense it
We need it
Nature vs. Machine
The battle is on
Harmony
Choirs
The orchestra of life
I could write forever
I can feel you all
I can sense you all
For you are in a coma
You are a quadraplegic
You are catatonic
You are being pinned down and injected with hellish poison
I can feel your deformities
I can feel your disabilities
You are deaf
You are blind
You are dumb
Carers
Of course I will write about you
Bless you all
The good ones
You know who you are
My good friend Matt Sharp has the worst Tourette’s in the country
He is poly drugged
He has DBS in him
Deep Brain Stimulation
I keep feeling your ECT
Electroconvulsive Therapy
That they are giving you for your clinical depression
Is it helping you?
I wish I could meet you all
I truly want to help you
Yes, I believe in miracles
But how can I treat you, cure you, heal you
With all these medications in you with all these terrible side effects
For you are constipated
You have to take one medication
Then another medication for that medication’s
Side effects
WHAT A MESS
The world is a mess
Jazzi Sirius is right
I was born here in London for a reason
I live in Wandsworth
A little bit of magic and a lot of worth
Trees and plants are our medicine
I can look inside your body
I can see and feel your gut and your brain
I can sense every single thing
We are the zillionaires
Every finger tip
Every line on their hands
Every baby
On their backs
Sitting at sowing machines
Making clothes
For our fast fashion industry
Our so called Economy
The injustice is off the scale
They work seven days a week
Some of them do not have running water
For those who pick tea
For those who grow our vegetables
I eat organic
Every wild fish caught
Every organic chicken
Every child slave labour
Finding a certain key ingredient to make our battery cars
Our iPhones
Apple
The nets to catch the people trying to commit suicide
Do you know how hard these slaves work?
Do you know how much they get paid?
How much was your iPhone?
Do you know how many hours it takes to make every single phone
Every bleached piece of cardboard
Every element in the plastic coated wire
Every single material contained in one phone
One laptop
People who grow and pick mango
Every plane
Every drop of oil pumped to fuel transport
Every amount of oil
In every piece of plastic
The earth’s blood
It belongs in the ground
We were never meant to extract it
What a discovery
No, what a huge mistake
The Industrial Revolution
Every plant
Every medicine
Every poison
Every animal
Why are you focusing on my brain?
Do you know my spirit?
Ask my spirit
I am everywhere
Every tree being cut down
And every tree being planted
Every test tube
Glass
Made from sand
Do you know how to make glass?
I’m watching you all
Staring down test tubes
Creating man-made chemicals
Why do you think I quit Pharmacology?
You’d learn more meditating under a tree
Do you know how to channel medicine?
Do you know that you cannot mimic plants?
Their intricate, specific medicine cannot be man-made
Yes I have time for science
Yes I have time for western medicine
But the medical degree is completely flawed
You don’t believe in meridians
Because you can’t prove they exist
Chakras
Energy
Can you not feel it?
So I’m an intuitive feeler
But maybe you’re autistic
Asperger’s
The way you think
The way you academically studied
The way your brain works
I can step into your shoes
But I wish you could think outside the box a bit more
African medicine
Eastern medicine
Tribal medicine
Please, we have gone so drastically wrong
I am aware progress is being made
But it’s the way you think
I wish you’d just ask me
We could learn from each other
I have a lot to learn
And boy, I’m here for it
I’m willing to listen
I’ve got the time
We need balance
The libran scales are tipped
Trying to bring about equilibrium
I trust Mother Nature
I do not want to marry you
Please stop asking me
The ring that binds my soul
I’m a free spirit
Do you know how many times I’ve been married?
Do you know how many times I’ve given birth?
Do you know how many times I’ve been a man?
Do you know how many lives I’ve had?
Do you know how many animals I’ve been?
Thousands of times
Do you know what a sacrifice it was to come back for this life?
Do you know that I didn’t want to come back down
I knew there was work to do
There are loads of us here
We all come back for each other
And all your stars who you think have died
Yes they were up there for
A while
But most of them have come back through
Born ready
I won’t tell you who
But I will recognise them
Please listen to your babies
When they are children
Because I have a feeling
Most of them will remember
Their past lives
There are a few who are
Staying in heaven
Like Amy and Whitney
And I’m happy that they’re
Still up there
Robin Williams
I see him in my mind’s eye
Smiling
Yes I am a medium
And no it is not just
Famous people
I do readings a lot at the
Moment
For my lodgers
They’re from India
Their grandparents
Over the rainbow 🌈
I find them
I can see their childhoods
I can see their saris, the colours
The medication is poison
It takes away my gifts
Now that I’m on less meds
37mg of Latuda/Lurasidone
And Metformin for food cravings and appetite
Who creates a medication like that?
Do you know what Olanzapine did to me?
It created raw red scars
Stretch marks all over my
Body
On my boobs, on my hips
On the inside of my legs
On my arms
They are no longer raw red
They have faded
But the scars are still there
Do you really think medication should be forced on anyone?
Pinned down by five people
Some of whom I had never seen before
Ian, that metal chained bracelet around your left wrist
Holding me down with the other nurses
Pulling my trousers down
Lying on my flat stomach
My body
Primum Non Nocere
The Hippocratic Oath
Really?
Interesting
For you are NOT doctors
You know who you are
I was there voluntarily
You broke the law
I will keep repeating myself
UNTIL YOU GET IT
Ian died of cancer
Andy, the warden told me
I said, ‘Good’
Because that was his karma
He asked me to forgive him from the other side
So I did
He was just doing his job
But the system has failed
Us
Margaret Thatcher
The Mental Health Act
Why are people mentally ill?
Why is there a mental health crisis?
I know exactly why
I have only read eight pages of
Sedated How Modern Capitalism Created Our Mental Health Crisis
By James Davies
Thank God for James
The sickness is in society
The sickness is in capitalism
The sickness is in corporate
GREED
Yes, it is a deadly sin
For a reason
Have I sinned?
Absolutely
My family were having a discussion on holiday in Portugal
About the seven deadly sins
My family are truly sacred
We were discussing which deadly sins we felt we had either related to or felt or carried out
I said I’ve been through every single one of them
And my brother looked at me, Will and he agreed
I have been through every seven deadly sins
So yes I have sinned
That is why I need confession
That is why I write
That is why I cry
That is why I pray
I’ve cried so much this morning
So much
I felt his energy
I felt his love
But it is his
It is not mine
Why do I feel and sense so much
I wouldn’t want it any other way
I love my gifts
As my father wrote in his song:
‘Al loves, she laughs and cries’
It is so true
He knows me so well
What a song
What a voice
Male impotence
PSSD
NO, IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT
No, you do not deserve to be
Impotent
No, you did not deserve your
PSSD
Doctors
PLEASE
LISTEN TO ME
Study Hippocrates
We have known this for
Millennia
Study the gut
The second brain
The medication damages the gut
It is NOT medicine
Medicine does not have side effects
‘One man’s food is another man’s poison’
Treat the individual
Not the collective
We are not all supposed to be vegans
Please respect that
But yes, please stop eating so much beef
Because the trees are being cut down in the Amazon
For cattle
And there is this tribe
In the Amazon
Which we truly need
Please trust me on this one
We need the tribes
We can learn so much from tribal wisdom
And the way they live
They know the plants
The blue butterfly 🦋
They know the waters
The skies, the stars, the universe
If we wipe them out
We’re history
Trust me
We’ll become extinct
I know Mother Nature
I know her ruthless side
I love her
I respect her
Please STOP medicating your patients
It is the devil’s work at best
It is a trillion dollar industry
Fine, sedate them, help them sleep if need be
PRIMUM NON NOCERE
