A sonnet for The Lionesses’ Euros final 2025

27 Jul
The Lionesses England 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 Euros 2025 team

Sitting with a feather behind my ear

It reminds me of Shakespeare with his quill

The injection depot fills me with fear

It’s like they are trying to make me ill

So I look to the heroines and girls

The way I kiss the grass and kneel to pray

Hemp, Mead, Greenwood take corners and ball swirls

Protect those ankles so you do not lay

Agyemang, the youth in you is pure belle

Williamson captains and leads with great style

I just wish I was not going through hell

Play your game, sprint hard, go that extra mile

Please strip swing your tops off if we do win

Do not worry about the rules, just grin

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My Body!

25 Jul
Off medication

When all I can really do is write

Let me tell you about what my body has been through

I’ve been put in a zoo eleven times

I feel like an animal tested guinea pig

I have been violated in the most horrific way

My left arm is bruised

At least it’s not my bum

When I was fifteen, I was asked to be a model

By Model’s 1

I had to go back to boarding school

I went back to them at 21

When I was lean and healthy

He said I didn’t have the right look

And should have come when I was younger

I thought that was when I was meant to be at school

What a fool he was

There’s so much I could have done

Having been inspired by Christy, Gisele, Kate and Cara

I’m such a creative

With an entrepreneurial mind

To be honest, I think he was the receptionist

So it wasn’t really up to him

My body’s been through more than most

My weight has constantly gone up and down

On and off meds

On Lurasidone/Latuda, I gained five stone

On Abilify, one stone

But I was pathologically gambling, promiscuous

Impulsive and compulsively overspending

My God, did Abilify cost me so much

£28k in debt, couldn’t think about anything

Apart from a bet

Or buying those clothes

It doesn’t block your dopamine but instead 

Does something with it

They literally haven’t got a clue

Sorry this is so boring

But this is my life

Full of suffering and strife

When I’m away for the weekend

Surrounded by beauty in the countryside

Thinking about their son

Such good family friends

It’s hard to really enjoy it

Take it all in and absorb it 

When my boobs are swollen again

My gut’s being damaged again

And again I’ve gained a stone and a half

In a very short space of time

On Haloperidol I was getting Parkinson’s symptoms

Shaking so much

I’ve listed the side effects too many times

I’m only going public about it

Because I’m trying to change the entire system

And I need all of your help

My friends on medication are basically physically

Fucked

Excuse my language

But they are

After a certain amount of time on them

The physical body starts to give up

And it manifests through physical ailments 

They’ve got all kinds of illnesses

And the ones who don’t 

Who are willing to take medication

Either can’t go to the loo

Are in pain

Or are overweight

It’s a mess

It’s a complete mess

I have no idea why they want me to take them

Pretty sure if I did

I’d be diagnosed with Dementia in five – ten years time

And I don’t write that lightly

My memory is shocking, it really is

And that is one side effect from these dreaded poisons

So what is it about people who want me on them

Suppressed, miserable, ‘stable’

What a disgusting fable

I was born to fight

Born to write 

Sorry it isn’t beautiful

Like my poem ‘Rare’

It will be again one day

Once I’ve made this system fair

Because I think about every patient

Past, present and future

And something HAS to change

It’s their sick game

Whether it’s a certain kind of fame

Or whatever it takes

I have something I need to say

Please listen to me

And if it helps, get on your knees and 

Pray

On medication 💉

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Big Fucking Pharma: I detest you!

23 Jul

I can’t even run because there’s too much acid in my muscles 

And I’m fatigued in a horrific way

In the way of a person who is being poisoned

I have no less than 25 side effects

Your practices are abhorrent

You should see the way I eat off meds

Organic, wild, free range and healthy

Now I’m on a diet of takeaways and coke zero

And that is not a mistake

You love the food lobbyists

You all work together

I know your secrets

I would happily watch you being set on fire

And relish it

Due to the death, deformity and suffering you have caused

You have no idea what you are doing 

But the truth is you do know what these medications

Or should I say poisons are actually doing

Yet you’re in bed with the FDA

So they approve it and redact accordingly

In the States, when money’s involved

If it makes money

That’s all you give a flying fuck about 

Who cares how much damage it causes

How much permanent damage, death and deformity it causes

If you’re making money

You’re winning

It’s North American ideology

It’s been sold to you

And gets thrust down your throats daily

You have ruined me

You have ruined my brain beyond repair

Scarred me and left me with permanent damage

But it’s fine

Because I knew from day one

This life would be a sacrifice

I was born ready

You should see a picture of me aged two years old

With my little fists in fighting positions

My house mistress at The Dragon

Aged 10 years old said

‘You know yourself so well Alice’

I do because I was born ready

I’m a very old soul 

So I only come back down 

If I really bloody have to

And my God, did I have to

Look these words up

Common side effects of Paliperidone on NICE:

Agitation

Amenorrhoea

Arrhythmias

Constipation

Dizziness

Drowsiness

Dry mouth 

Erectile dysfunction

Fatigue

Galactorrhoea

Gynaecomastia

Hyperglycaemia

Hyperprolactinaemia

Hypersalivation

Hypotension (dose-related)

Insomnia

Leucopenia

Movement disorders

Muscle rigidity

Neutropenia

Parkinsonism

Postural hypotension (dose-related)

QT interval prolongation

Rash

Seizure

Tremor

Urinary retention

Vomiting

Weight increased

Uncommon side effects:

Agranulocytosis

Confusion

Neuroleptic malignant syndrome (discontinue—potentially fatal)

Rare of very rare side effects:

Sudden death

Withdrawal syndrome neonatal

Further information:

For depot antipsychotics—side-effects may persist until the drug has been cleared from its depot site

What does that even mean?

Surely you mean

Excreted or secreted from the physical body?

I could name a few more

But guess what, I don’t want to bore people

Even though this is as boring as it gets

When psychoses are vital, important processes

I repeat myself like a broken record 

Because I have to drum it home

Until you get it 

And you

STOP! 

Do you call the above medicine?

Because to me it is the antithesis of medicine

Medication Global Nation

Please statistically calculate 

How many people you currently have on anti-psychotics globally

And while we’re at it anti-depressants

I instinctively never touched them

But I have been forced to take anti-psychotics 

Against my will

It is MY body

It is MY life

I am MY own best DOCTOR

I do not care how insane you think I am

You have driven me crazy and made me ill

With all of your bollocks and bullshit in the west 

It is ludicrous

Stop staring down test tubes

And admit defeat

You will NEVER get it right!

You have to treat the individual

Not the collective

You have to tailor medicine to that individual

Synthetic mimicked chemicals are not the answer

We need plants

Don’t mimic them!

I am willing to try microdosing of magic mushrooms

But it would need to be the right plant

Kinesiologically tested on my unique body

That goes for everyone else as well

We are so beautifully unique

We are energy, meridians, water

Not fucking chemicals and synapses

You stupid idiots

This modern western bullshit is repugnant

And so grotesque

It’s obscene the animal testing you do

I struggle with it and I am the strongest person I know

I dread to think how a rat or mouse feels

You are literally vile and you rile me

To the very core of my being 

Like the yin yang in the core of the earth

We need ancient wisdom and healing

Do you know what the word even means? Healing

Wake up and smell the coffee

And literally see the damage you are causing the gut microbiome

The second brain

I would love to see you all bankrupt, jailed and 

Eradicated from medicine

Because you disgrace the word and yourselves

You have blood on your hands

And I hope you rot in hell

I will continue to fight

With all of my might

Guided from up above

With a soul full of love

I will try to not practice displacement aggression

And take it out on those that I love the most

As you are the ones who deserve my wrath

The colour of every flame

Try the red flame, then the blue then the green

Trust me
I think I do know how hot and how painful

Those flames can feel

Like the fire from a dragon’s mouth

Intrepid, I have walked so long in the South

So please look at photographs of me on and off meds

And tell me which looks healthy

I am living proof of your sickness

You create and make people sick

Therefore you are pure evil

Money is dead

It is simply dead trees

Numbers and machines

That’s literally all it is

You fucking pricks

Sexual dysfunction as well

So I have no form of relief

If I get Amenorrhea 

I will happily rip your flesh off 

And eat you alive

Yes I’m an actress 

No, I’m not a cannibal

But maybe I’ll get a cannibal 

To do it for me

I don’t think you really get WRATH

Until you’ve felt TORTURE!

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The Fool

23 Jul
The Fool

Is important

But The Fool needs to know thyself

Why does The Fool do what The Fool does?

Running

Running

Running

Over the cliff blithely

Don’t give up on your reason

Even though you always do end up committing treason

You make me laugh

But I have to admit

You are the most frustrating person on the planet!

So you can renounce resistance

And follow your instincts freely

Annihilation

I could literally shake you

Like an earthquake

Becoming one with your own vision

That’s more what happens in your fifties

Too busy with that trumpet in your ear

Remember how strong and grounding your best bassist is

The gentle strength of the keyboardist

Letting go and moving on

Oh look, another song

Wow!

Who cares?

Do you care?

Who still cares?

So wrapped up in the feelings

But literally we couldn’t give less of a fuck about the feelings because you give the impression 

You do not care

So why the hell should we?

The Boss’ song

Devils & Dust

Please rewatch the music video

The end

Until tomorrow

79: My young man’ll be just fine

21 Jul
M&D

Don’t worry darling Daddy

Maybe I should be your caddy

Just for your special day

Celebrating your birthday

Oh how you love to play

Golf and you swing the club in style 

I do love you

My love for my family

Encompasses the Nile

Feel like we could take on the world

Although I know you don’t want me to

Just would like me to fight my own battle

But I’m determined to help the herd

Every single damaged cattle

I guess I’ve always been like this

Thinking of everyone

Maybe it is part of the problem

And leaves me in a conundrum

To just be selfish and focus on myself

I take it to extreme

Always looking for that love supreme

This planet is not in an ideal state

Thinking about The Butterfly Effect

And our palms, do we only get one fate?

Dear Daddy, how you made up stories

When we were little

Played with me on roller skates

In Battersea Park

It’s a shame I didn’t pick up a fiddle

But the piano, tuba and flute were good

Who knew about the ADHD

It’s always been there

Living in Wandsworth, in the hood

But again, not keen on taking something for it

If it contains side effects

Then it ain’t perfect and I am simply not interested

You have been through a lot

I have never forgotten what you have said

As Pappa would say

‘It wasn’t easy’

But maybe that’s the mountain

It will take a lot to get to a better view

Never take your eyes off of your hands and feet

Be careful with the coffee

And stay hydrated

Not too much red meat

Sometimes we have to repeat ourselves

But you do take it on board

Even if we have to raise our voices

Make our points, they were stated

Now about your health young one

Was it the ECT, Lithium, Atkins or genes?

Who knows but boy, I’m keen 

To get to the bottom of all things medical

You have been through so much

And you’re still fighting on

To be honest, I think you’re incredible

Not sure quite how you do it

With your sensitivity 

You must be seriously robust and strong

I will never forget my 40th song

You sang for me

You’re so beautifully clever

Love the way your best friend Andrew

Always knows about the weather

I do think about Freddie

Your other best friend

The amount of memorial services you attend

You’re so good at seeing people through

To the very end

Of life, through all of their strife

Isn’t Mummy simply the best wife

I hate what has happened to me

Everything the meds have done

I seriously do detest

The state of affairs that my beloved family

Are dealing with in our nest

We have to seriously find a new path

It’s probably an ancient one

Trust me, something has to give

Enjoy all of the good things in life

Especially Mummy

Daddy, you can be so wonderfully funny

Will, your sister, your friends, family

We all love you so so much

You’ve always had those healing hands

Like Granny, gentle to the touch

Now where would I be without such a loving father?

Why I feel like the luckiest girl in the world

You take me that much further

With your jokes and thinking outside the box

The way we have laughed as a family through the years

They’re my favourite moments

Being with all of you

I would love for you to see me on stage one day

So I can show you what I really can do

Peace be with you

Just stay true 

One on One (Rap Song)

16 Jul
Brittany Murphy|Eminem (8 Mile)

Chorus

What you done?

What you done?

What you done to be on

One on one?

What you done?

What you done?

What you done to be on

One on one?

I’ll rap it with sum rum

Don’t get me a gun

Bond is back

Boy, she ain’t black

We fort she lost track 

But actually

She’s bold

De girl’s got rhydem

A wild one you see

She actually ain’t slack

And we know 

She got ya back

It’s like Ralph Fiennes

Ralph Fiennes

Ralph Fiennes

He’s so good 

At learning his lines

Chorus

People have passion

About shrinks’ crimes

Some like their fashion

Satellites in da sky

I can see them

With my supernatural eye

Russell Crowe

Leo Di Caprio

Body of Lies

So of course she flies

Don’t be brainwashed (by)

What you are led

By the bullshit

On the internet Fred

A patient’s being force fed

It’s just like being poisoned

By a certain kind of med

So….Chorus

Did you have sex in the loos?

Baby, we eat

We snooze

Did you put up a fight

To the shit that ain’t right

Escape from Rose Ward twice

Jump the fence

Like the animal tested albino mice

Did you smoke in the courtyard?

Cos of the law

We know you fought hard

Did you post online

Cos you knew things just ain’t fine

Did they confiscate your phone

Put it in the safe

Broke the key

The disorganisation ain’t pretty

Chorus

Did you photograph a cuddle

Put them all in a muddle

About what to do

With the story in you

Told you I’d rebel

Play up

What you put in that cup

Don’t drug me up

They just fuck you up

Muck you up

Body ain’t tight

So I been fastin’

More than at night

Lost 30kg coming off Latuda

Gained 10 back

That’s a third of the weight

And you wonder why I hate

When you put me in that

16 side effects riddled state

Chorus

Take the bate

Big pharma

Of what you create

Boy, you’re late

To your sick fate

Tryna help or 

Tryna make money?

No I don’t think it’s funny

When I have to jump a fence

Like a bunny

To escape the FDA’s crimes

And when I’m free

And the wind chimes

I think about you all

And the investors too

Hollywood

What do we do?

Chorus

Shall I blow you up?

Set fire to your loins?

For all those dollars

All those coins

I reckon Eminem

Might like this

Boy, you’re pure bliss

I wanna collaborate with you

Make this one true

Let’s get in the studio

I’ll show you what I can do

Dance all night

Eat, twerk

I know we won’t fight

I love the way your fingers move

The way you rhyme and write

Wanna create the music videos

Be part of the growing team

Fly to you

And fulfil my dream

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Guys, I just wanna be your guitars

15 Jul

Play me like you play your strings

All the girls in the crowd

I love what it brings

Elvis and Beatle mania

The way they go wild

Hold their hands up to their faces

And scream with Euphoria

It’s like sex on a plate

Puts them in that perfect state

A trance like frenzy

Where you just wanna fuck their brains out

Leave them panting and shaking

While the world around you is breaking

Dripping from the seams

The way they have balanced on their beams

Just release it all

Let loose 

Roam free

Find your eclectic frequency

The vibration in your raw energy

Get on your knees

Do a somersault like Jimi

The beauty of the birds and the bees

This is not for children

Parental Guidance

I think I need to separate the difference 

Between the matinees and the night shows

Cumming alive at night

Gentle bite

Sex starved but my mind is free

Am I exactly where I’m supposed to be?

Because if so, then this must be my charity work

But patients cannot visit patients

What the hell do I do?

About all the mess they’ve made

I just wanna be your guitars

And listen to the sound

Lie down

Alone in the crowd

Where you practice

Where you chill

Spending hours geeking out

It’s such a vibe

A potent falice

Do you wanna dance with Palice?

CAGED ANIMAL!

14 Jul

You would wanna medicate a rare, wild

One

Wouldn’t 

You?

Having screaming matches about the word I 

Detest

And what it 

Signifies

What do I need to do to get my message 

Across

To leave me to 

It

You have riddled me with no less than 16 side 

Effects

Which I am now getting rid of so I can

Fast

And again, you want to have the discussion about 

It

Because that is what you 

Do

It’s like Passion of the Christ

All over 

Again!

When are you going to 

Learn?

LEAVE ME ALONE!

As I said, I would prefer to be in

Solitary

I will spend the rest of the day in

Silence

Is that what you would 

Like?

For me to not have a 

Voice?

And remain silent for however long it

Takes

Because I’m willing to to prove 

It

WHATEVER IT TAKES!

Wimbledon Final 2025

13 Jul
Alcaraz|Sinner

As I sit and 

Wait

The temperance

Of what I 

Anticipate

The umpire has a certain state of 

Mind

It takes a lot of focus

With my ADHD

I think I’d definitely

Find

It hard to keep the 

Score

But knowing

More

About the way the boys

And girls hold that luminous

Ball

What a code word

Please don’t worry

If you

Fall

It makes me think of the word

Candescent

I love the colour

It’s pure

Fluorescent

So to locker room

Chat

With your masseur

Your coach

That

Pat

On your back

It’s such a mental

Game

At this point

Hold your composure

You deserve your

Fame

What a match it was

Yesterday

The emotion of Amanda Anisimova

The game at 

Play

The way you spoke

Your words and 

Tears

Use the experience wisely

And have no

Fears

What a result for Iga Swiatek

The first Polish

Ever

To win the 

Championship

Girl, that was

Clever

What a beautiful lady and

Player

All of that hard work

Kissing the plate

You so deserve it

Pay her

To win in less than an 

Hour

Strength, resilience

Even your higher

Power

I loved your celebratory 

Smile

It encompassed the world

On the papers

Like swimming through the 

Nile

Sinner/Djokovic

What a semi final match

Seeing Leo in the crowd

Wanted me to say

‘There you go Jack,

Catch’ :-)))

And Rami 

Too

I didn’t think anyone could play Freddie

But what a performance you

Do

Novak Djokovic

I’m interested in your 

Diet

Not sure if it’s for me

But I’m willing to try

It

Gentlemen and Ladies of the 

Crowd

Wearing your beautiful hats

You make them feel so 

Proud

Fans are fanning

For Jannik Sinner and Carlos Alcaraz

Hopefully, it’s John

McEnroe

No rain or 

Snow

Guys, I cannot 

Wait

I’m looking forward to the 

Show

EUROS

10 Jul
Trophy

Go girls 

Go

Make history

Be a champion

I love watching you 

Flow

Every single golden 

Move

It gets me going 

And puts me in the 

Groove

The way it feels boots on the 

Grass

The ball moves quicker

Make sure you accurately 

Pass

So here we’re at in 

2025

Shoot the ball

Throw your body and 

Dive

Lionesses, every 

Team

Get those awesome goals

Celebrate in style

And fulfil your 

Dream

🔥🫧🌳🌈🏆⚽️⚜️

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