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Prescribed Harm

29 Jul

My God do I sound like a broken record

What does it take for me to have my freedom?

People making decisions for me at 41 seriously angers me

When everyone around me is telling me to remain calm

The wrath is blue, red, green and purple

The anger is in no way a symptom

At what point does somebody else’s opinion lead over my own?

When protesting something like weapons and war naked once

Maybe I should have made the protest more clear

What are you focusing on?

Prescribed Harm and Anti Psychiatry is a growing movement

With the likes of James Davies, Richard P. Bentall and Joanna Moncrieff

What does it take to highlight the system is failing the patients?

A patient having been sectioned from the age of twelve

A patient who has self harm marks all over her face and body

Crying out for someone to talk to

Yet all they want to do is medicate her

And that is not what she wants, screams and violently abhors it 

She is only 21 years of age

Is in care with her two year old child having been taken away from her

Another girl going to A&E due to self harming with a razor

I or they haven’t been offered any time with the psychologist

The absence of any alternative is blatant and desolated 

I was medicated at the age of 17 having not slept for eight days

What does it take to take on Big Pharma and win?

When will they and the FDA take responsibility for their crimes?

The damage done is costing the NHS so much more in the long run

Instead of early intervention of therapy and healing which is so desperately needed

Which Princess Catherine champions

How do I lead when they won’t interview me?

What does it take for my voice to be heard?

What are you all so afraid of?

The discrimination, stigma, the unknown?

Lose the fear, wipe away the absence of a tear

Fight with all of your might

And write with never ending plight until

You are listened to and your voice is heard

As you are not alone

And can speak for the patients with articulation and composure

Lead as you always do and always have done

Find your fellow patients who align with your thinking

No, I am not a doctor and do not have a medical degree

But I would like you to take what you prescribe for one month

Section yourself for the same period of time

And actually put yourself in the shoes of the vulnerable patients

You are so clearly not treating in any way

Just endlessly prescribing harm

And creating ill health

What has the western model of medicine really come to?

A list of side effects

Why is there such a lack of knowledge when it comes to nutrition?

Why is the focus on something that is so clearly flawed?

The list of side effects are right in front of you

Why as a doctor would you therefore prescribe without treating your patients?

So you are striking due to pay?

Are you even doctors?

Do you, ‘First Do No Harm’?

Question yourselves, challenge yourselves

You might have a medical degree under your belt 

But that does not make you a good doctor

It means you can retain information amongst other practices

Involved in getting your degree

I congratulate you on getting it

But where would you be without your nurses?

Seriously, how on earth would you cope?

If you are not in the field of psychiatry

Do you not think you have a moral duty as a doctor to get involved?

When you know it simply isn’t right?

Please do get involved

And help me change this dire system

Because we are talking about our youth

A generation in crisis, a mental health system in crisis

I do not and never will think medication is the answer

Long term, alternatives are cheaper

I have been prescribed since the age of 17:

Olanzapine, Risperidone, Abilify, Lamotrigine, Paliperidone, Procyclidine, Lurasidone, Haloperidol, Paliperidone again

With a list of side effects as long as my arm

Having been taken off Paliperidone in 2017 due to Prolactin levels being 2123 ng/mL (normal range 102-496 ng/mL) and then prescribed it again in 2025

How wrong could it go? How negligent could they be?
They do not even see me, they just prescribe

And you wonder why I do not think they are doctors

What happened to not prescribing what you are not willing to take?

What happened to doctors actually treating patients?

What happened to our health?

Overweight bodies riddled with serious trauma that needs addressing

When the system itself is causing severe trauma

And you ask me to stay calm

When all I want to do is scream 

I have been wrongfully sectioned from 1.5.25

Put on a section 135 due to walking down the street naked

And a past life theory of Mary Magdalene

When there were no grounds to section me on 1.5.25

I was of sound mind, sane, composed and articulate to a concerning degree

Ask the Police, please do involve the police

What do I do on this Holy Grail if you will not join forces and help me?

Afraid to follow the leader?

When the leader strides through with assertion 

So used to following the crowd

I will if you will mentality

It is something that needs all of your attention

For your children, their friends and your fellow human beings

Turning a blind eye

Is like looking at starvation and walking away

I’m alright Jack because it’s not affecting me

When does one take responsibility for something that clearly isn’t right

Or just!

JUSTICE MATTERS

Rainbow Prophecy Warriors exist around the world

Get involved

No need for likes but attention and engagement, yes please

I need all of the help I can get!

Protest, march, gather together and always know

Nothing changes without the likes of Rosa Parks

So be HER!

Anything for the patients

28 Jul
Jack Nicholson and patients in One Flew Over The Cuckoo’s Nest

Twinned fortitude of collective divine

Summon the medicated strength in you

Dancing all night with the patients: sublime

Lymph and gut damage is so bloody true

What do I do if I cannot visit?

It’s bitter truth injection: they give me

Thinking of lawyers so it’s explicit

Callus to the bone I can feel in thee

Get your guitar and work on this album

I long for the studio but not now

Sexual dysfunction, can I not cum?

Too much damage in me I feel that cow

Something’s got to give, they need therapy

Thrusting medication down their throats, stuck

Don’t throw it all away for chemistry

Bring back the healing and find them some luck

Beautiful girls but their bodies are fucked

One swiped me today but they came through true

She hit me round the face, I could have chucked 

Do you say bathroom or do you say loo?

Sonnets only have three quatrains but six

Shakespeare, I’m changing the rules, how doth feel?

I need that psychedelic music fix

Is it perfect? Do we have a cool deal?

Whether it’s me or Will, only time tells

Sing from the rooftops and ring out those bells

My Body!

25 Jul
Off medication

When all I can really do is write

Let me tell you about what my body has been through

I’ve been put in a zoo eleven times

I feel like an animal tested guinea pig

I have been violated in the most horrific way

My left arm is bruised

At least it’s not my bum

When I was fifteen, I was asked to be a model

By Model’s 1

I had to go back to boarding school

I went back to them at 21

When I was lean and healthy

He said I didn’t have the right look

And should have come when I was younger

I thought that was when I was meant to be at school

What a fool he was

There’s so much I could have done

Having been inspired by Christy, Gisele, Kate and Cara

I’m such a creative

With an entrepreneurial mind

To be honest, I think he was the receptionist

So it wasn’t really up to him

My body’s been through more than most

My weight has constantly gone up and down

On and off meds

On Lurasidone/Latuda, I gained five stone

On Abilify, one stone

But I was pathologically gambling, promiscuous

Impulsive and compulsively overspending

My God, did Abilify cost me so much

£28k in debt, couldn’t think about anything

Apart from a bet

Or buying those clothes

It doesn’t block your dopamine but instead 

Does something with it

They literally haven’t got a clue

Sorry this is so boring

But this is my life

Full of suffering and strife

When I’m away for the weekend

Surrounded by beauty in the countryside

Thinking about their son

Such good family friends

It’s hard to really enjoy it

Take it all in and absorb it 

When my boobs are swollen again

My gut’s being damaged again

And again I’ve gained a stone and a half

In a very short space of time

On Haloperidol I was getting Parkinson’s symptoms

Shaking so much

I’ve listed the side effects too many times

I’m only going public about it

Because I’m trying to change the entire system

And I need all of your help

My friends on medication are basically physically

Fucked

Excuse my language

But they are

After a certain amount of time on them

The physical body starts to give up

And it manifests through physical ailments 

They’ve got all kinds of illnesses

And the ones who don’t 

Who are willing to take medication

Either can’t go to the loo

Are in pain

Or are overweight

It’s a mess

It’s a complete mess

I have no idea why they want me to take them

Pretty sure if I did

I’d be diagnosed with Dementia in five – ten years time

And I don’t write that lightly

My memory is shocking, it really is

And that is one side effect from these dreaded poisons

So what is it about people who want me on them

Suppressed, miserable, ‘stable’

What a disgusting fable

I was born to fight

Born to write 

Sorry it isn’t beautiful

Like my poem ‘Rare’

It will be again one day

Once I’ve made this system fair

Because I think about every patient

Past, present and future

And something HAS to change

It’s their sick game

Whether it’s a certain kind of fame

Or whatever it takes

I have something I need to say

Please listen to me

And if it helps, get on your knees and 

Pray

On medication 💉