Archive | May, 2024

Fearless

28 May

It is collective psychosis

On a colossal scale

Can you not see how you’ve been brainwashed?

To make money

To buy

To invest

To keep the unfair economy going

You have no idea how determined I am

How fearless I am

I know how determined some of you are

Paralympians

Olympians

I will write about you

I truly love your determination

So far not one doctor

Not one patient

Not one lawyer

Has reached out to help me

Are they scared?

Concerned the case would take over their lives?

Together we are stronger

Strength in numbers

When we join forces

We are extremely powerful

More powerful than any establishment

Rosa Parks

Martin Luther King

History has proven this time and time again

There are more of us than them

People being tortured

I am aware of them

People being raped

I am aware of them

People with guns to their heads

I am aware of them

I am aware of you all

So please join me

Help me

I will do the work

Teamwork makes the dream work

Whatever it takes to prove every case globally

You say you care

But do you care enough?

SAS

SIS

Everything you do never goes unnoticed

🙏

Everything

27 May

The Secret Language of Birthdays

Is like my Bible

May Twenty-Seventh

The Day of Driven Dedication

Happy Birthday

There is so much in this book

Astronomy

Astrology

Numerology

Tarot

Health

Advice

Meditation

Strengths

Weaknesses

I can’t tell you how much work I did last night

A&E

Suicidals

Alcoholics

NHS

On its knees

She bleeds

Paediatrics

Geriatrics

Every hospital

Everyone who’s sick

I can hear them

Sense them

Feel them

‘Save us’

Melancholy

Patch Adams is right

We need comedians

We need animal therapy

People need sanctuaries

It’s a total disgrace the Priory has become about money

The route of all evil

Yes I am fully aware of what money can buy

But money has taken over

Do the tribes have money?

No

Have you asked yourselves why?

This is collective psychosis

Sometimes I feel like the sanest woman on the planet

Ironic isn’t it

Holy Mary Mother of God

As River used to say

Trillionaires, billionaires, millionaires

We need to work together

Men and women

Equality

We need each other

Respect one another

Malaria

Wasps

They never used to exist

There is too much evil in this world

Armageddon

BRING IT ON

Questions

Answers

Problems

Solutions

Channel it

Tree medicine

Poppy plant

Coke plant

Powerful plants

Channel your medicine

Some say ‘chemo saved my life’

No, it prolonged your life

The amount of spirits around me is undeniable

Chemo killed some of them

Immune systems

Every time zone

2024

You know the score

God, I feel raw

Sentient animals

Sentient plants

The circle of life

The animal kingdom

Herbivores

Omnivores

Carnivores

Every blood group

During one of my psychoses

There were these children

With rare blood

They could breathe in carbon dioxide

And breathe out oxygen

They are trees

Do they exist?

Trust me, through my library of past lives

I’ve seen all kinds of things

You wouldn’t believe what I’ve witnessed

Facial analysis

Tongue analysis

Chinese medicine

George Monkhouse

Acupuncture

Pulse reading

Refracting you

8.2 billion people

Zillions of animals

Mating in heaven

Bringing about the new species

Under the ocean

Under the sand

No, you cannot touch them

No, you cannot reach them

No, you cannot name them

For there they are safe

Life

What a miracle

Diagnosis

Psychosis

But what are they experiencing?

What are their psychoses teaching them?

PLEASE, let them go through it

They are important

Vital processes

Teachings

Lessons

Just help them sleep if need be

Romeo and Juliet

That remedy

That tincture

Please, remember

Please

We know how to help people sleep

Benzodiazepines are highly addictive

They want you to be dependent on these medications

Addictions

Afflictions

Watching the markets

Like an eagle

Pharmaceuticals

It’s written in your cuticles

Psychopaths are running this world

I know what the Eskimos would do

Kill them instantly

With a bow and arrow

Maybe a knife

But I decided to take a different route

So they experience what they have inflicted

Psychosis

Eaten alive by rats

The plague

Why did you make me vague?

Damage my memory

Scar my body

When I could no longer remember my dance routines

I felt completely stupid

Couldn’t think straight

Couldn’t do my A-levels

Gained so much weight

Lost my balance

Sit with the geeks, the freaks, the goths, the lonely person

They created God’s wrath in me

It is the devil’s work at best

Money making machines

Every acidic chemical

How does it truly feel to be you?

Like The Sacklers

Bring in the snakes

Their worst nightmares

For they will suffer

Hell

You deserved it!

The amount of deaths

The amount of damage

And permanent deformities

Do you know suffering is worse than death

A blessed release

But they are telling my spirit their stories

I am a medium for a reason

What is your spirit animal?

Do you relate to a butterfly, a humming bird, a dragon fly, a whale, a silver back gorilla, a dinosaur, a tiger, a camel, a mule, a bee, a springbok, a deer, wild boar, a worm, a snail, their magic trail, a killer whale, a leopard, a cheater, giraffe, make me laugh

The ones in cages

Oh, the rages

I can feel their depression

Which we have created

Open the cages

Throw down your weapons

Hug each other

Love each other

Heal each other

The children going back to school

Please don’t leave anyone

Sitting alone

If the ring leader is a bully

She is probably struggling at home

Do not follow the crowd

Herd community

Get to know everyone in your class

Never leave anyone alone

If you see someone being picked on, put a stop to it

I give you my strength

Please, always be kind

For you never know what people are going through

If they are obese

They need love and healing

Guidance

Please do not judge them

You do not know their stories

Their feelings

Why feel sorry for an anorexic, bulimic

But mock the overweight?

We need to educate each other

On health

Diet

Greens

Alkalise

Listen to your body

Social media

Use it wisely

I can see how you all use it

It’s fascinating really

The likers

The watchers

The commenters

The ghost watchers

The stalkers

I know you all

I get it

But please trolls

The tolls of the lives you are hurting

You have to ask yourselves

What has happened in their lives

To act the way they do

Saving lives

Why would you like to be a doctor?

Would you like to save lives?

Would you like to be a musician?

An astronaut?

An environmentalist?

A script writer?

A poet?

A rapper?

An artist?

Why are they on the streets?

My heart beats

For I love you

I care

Psychopaths

Narcissists

My truthful glare

I am fearless

Tearless?

No

I cry

But my tears heal me

I care about your feelings

The disabled

Special needs

Carers

There are so many good people in this country

So many amazing people

Unsung heroes

Pride of Britain Awards

They make me cry so much

They make me so proud

To have chosen to be born in this country

For you do not earn

Much money

But everything you do never goes unnoticed

Everything you do is noted

God

The Gods

The Goddesses

Your spirit guides

Your angels

Maybe you need an exorcist

To rid yourself of that demon

That possession

God’s speed

Supernatural activity

I can feel it

I can sense it

We need it

Nature vs. Machine

The battle is on

Harmony

Choirs

The orchestra of life

I could write forever

Carers

24 May

I can feel you all

I can sense you all

For you are in a coma

You are a quadraplegic

You are catatonic

You are being pinned down and injected with hellish poison

I can feel your deformities

I can feel your disabilities

You are deaf

You are blind

You are dumb

Carers

Of course I will write about you

Bless you all

The good ones

You know who you are

My good friend Matt Sharp has the worst Tourette’s in the country

He is poly drugged

He has DBS in him

Deep Brain Stimulation

I keep feeling your ECT

Electroconvulsive Therapy

That they are giving you for your clinical depression

Is it helping you?

I wish I could meet you all

I truly want to help you

Yes, I believe in miracles

But how can I treat you, cure you, heal you

With all these medications in you with all these terrible side effects

For you are constipated

You have to take one medication

Then another medication for that medication’s

Side effects

WHAT A MESS

The world is a mess

Jazzi Sirius is right

I was born here in London for a reason

I live in Wandsworth

A little bit of magic and a lot of worth

Trees and plants are our medicine

I can look inside your body

I can see and feel your gut and your brain

I can sense every single thing

We are the zillionaires

Slave Labour

22 May

Every finger tip

Every line on their hands

Every baby

On their backs

Sitting at sowing machines

Making clothes

For our fast fashion industry

Our so called Economy

The injustice is off the scale

They work seven days a week

Some of them do not have running water

For those who pick tea

For those who grow our vegetables

I eat organic

Every wild fish caught

Every organic chicken

Every child slave labour

Finding a certain key ingredient to make our battery cars

Our iPhones

Apple

The nets to catch the people trying to commit suicide

Do you know how hard these slaves work?

Do you know how much they get paid?

How much was your iPhone?

Do you know how many hours it takes to make every single phone

Every bleached piece of cardboard

Every element in the plastic coated wire

Every single material contained in one phone

One laptop

People who grow and pick mango

Every plane

Every drop of oil pumped to fuel transport

Every amount of oil

In every piece of plastic

The earth’s blood

It belongs in the ground

We were never meant to extract it

What a discovery

No, what a huge mistake

The Industrial Revolution

Every plant

Every medicine

Every poison

Every animal

Why are you focusing on my brain?

Do you know my spirit?

Ask my spirit

I am everywhere

Every tree being cut down

And every tree being planted

Every test tube

Glass

Made from sand

Do you know how to make glass?

I’m watching you all

Staring down test tubes

Creating man-made chemicals

Why do you think I quit Pharmacology?

You’d learn more meditating under a tree

Do you know how to channel medicine?

Do you know that you cannot mimic plants?

Their intricate, specific medicine cannot be man-made

Yes I have time for science

Yes I have time for western medicine

But the medical degree is completely flawed

You don’t believe in meridians

Because you can’t prove they exist

Chakras

Energy

Can you not feel it?

So I’m an intuitive feeler

But maybe you’re autistic

Asperger’s

The way you think

The way you academically studied

The way your brain works

I can step into your shoes

But I wish you could think outside the box a bit more

African medicine

Eastern medicine

Tribal medicine

Please, we have gone so drastically wrong

I am aware progress is being made

But it’s the way you think

I wish you’d just ask me

We could learn from each other

I have a lot to learn

And boy, I’m here for it

I’m willing to listen

I’ve got the time

We need balance

The libran scales are tipped

Trying to bring about equilibrium

I trust Mother Nature

The Ring That Binds My Soul

21 May

I do not want to marry you

Please stop asking me

The ring that binds my soul

I’m a free spirit

Do you know how many times I’ve been married?

Do you know how many times I’ve given birth?

Do you know how many times I’ve been a man?

Do you know how many lives I’ve had?

Do you know how many animals I’ve been?

Thousands of times

Do you know what a sacrifice it was to come back for this life?

Do you know that I didn’t want to come back down

I knew there was work to do

There are loads of us here

We all come back for each other

And all your stars who you think have died

Yes they were up there for

A while

But most of them have come back through

Born ready

I won’t tell you who

But I will recognise them

Please listen to your babies

When they are children

Because I have a feeling

Most of them will remember

Their past lives

There are a few who are

Staying in heaven

Like Amy and Whitney

And I’m happy that they’re

Still up there

Robin Williams

I see him in my mind’s eye

Smiling

Yes I am a medium

And no it is not just

Famous people

I do readings a lot at the

Moment

For my lodgers

They’re from India

Their grandparents

Over the rainbow 🌈

I find them

I can see their childhoods

I can see their saris, the colours

The medication is poison

It takes away my gifts

Now that I’m on less meds

37mg of Latuda/Lurasidone

And Metformin for food cravings and appetite

Who creates a medication like that?

Do you know what Olanzapine did to me?

It created raw red scars

Stretch marks all over my

Body

On my boobs, on my hips

On the inside of my legs

On my arms

They are no longer raw red

They have faded

But the scars are still there

Do you really think medication should be forced on anyone?

Pinned down by five people

Some of whom I had never seen before

Ian, that metal chained bracelet around your left wrist

Holding me down with the other nurses

Pulling my trousers down

Lying on my flat stomach

My body

Primum Non Nocere

The Hippocratic Oath

Really?

Interesting

For you are NOT doctors

You know who you are

I was there voluntarily

You broke the law

I will keep repeating myself

UNTIL YOU GET IT

Ian died of cancer

Andy, the warden told me

I said, ‘Good’

Because that was his karma

He asked me to forgive him from the other side

So I did

He was just doing his job

But the system has failed

Us

Margaret Thatcher

The Mental Health Act

Why are people mentally ill?

Why is there a mental health crisis?

I know exactly why

I have only read eight pages of

Sedated How Modern Capitalism Created Our Mental Health Crisis

By James Davies

Thank God for James

The sickness is in society

The sickness is in capitalism

The sickness is in corporate

GREED

Yes, it is a deadly sin

For a reason

Have I sinned?

Absolutely

My family were having a discussion on holiday in Portugal

About the seven deadly sins

My family are truly sacred

We were discussing which deadly sins we felt we had either related to or felt or carried out

I said I’ve been through every single one of them

And my brother looked at me, Will and he agreed

I have been through every seven deadly sins

So yes I have sinned

That is why I need confession

That is why I write

That is why I cry

That is why I pray

I’ve cried so much this morning

So much

I felt his energy

I felt his love

But it is his

It is not mine

Why do I feel and sense so much

I wouldn’t want it any other way

I love my gifts

As my father wrote in his song:

‘Al loves, she laughs and cries’

It is so true

He knows me so well

What a song

What a voice

Male impotence

PSSD

NO, IT IS NOT YOUR FAULT

No, you do not deserve to be

Impotent

No, you did not deserve your

PSSD

Doctors

PLEASE

LISTEN TO ME

Study Hippocrates

We have known this for

Millennia

Study the gut

The second brain

The medication damages the gut

It is NOT medicine

Medicine does not have side effects

‘One man’s food is another man’s poison’

Treat the individual

Not the collective

We are not all supposed to be vegans

Please respect that

But yes, please stop eating so much beef

Because the trees are being cut down in the Amazon

For cattle

And there is this tribe

In the Amazon

Which we truly need

Please trust me on this one

We need the tribes

We can learn so much from tribal wisdom

And the way they live

They know the plants

The blue butterfly 🦋

They know the waters

The skies, the stars, the universe

If we wipe them out

We’re history

Trust me

We’ll become extinct

I know Mother Nature

I know her ruthless side

I love her

I respect her

Please STOP medicating your patients

It is the devil’s work at best

It is a trillion dollar industry

Fine, sedate them, help them sleep if need be

PRIMUM NON NOCERE

Domestic Violence

19 May

Can you feel my wrath

I can feel it in your teeth

Your rage

Your ancestral anger

Like a caged wild animal

The vicious rape

Clasping asphyxiation

The gagging bukkake

Makes me want to wretch

Surrounded by men

How on earth can you

Watch that?

The Radicals

What we sense

What we feel

What we witness

There is an energy in

What you cannot see

Healing hands

Gently placed on your

Foreheads

For we truly love you

The amount of healing

Women need

Do you know how many?

Castration

Due to your penetration

Repetitive anal

The dying fable

Impotence

You deserved it

Chop off my hand

Karma is a powerful tool

Bring in the poltergeists

The good ones

You know who you are

Supernatural rare phenomena

You have and will witness

It

Can’t explain it?

Good

Can’t prove it?

Even better

You cannot trace us

Haste us

Or taste us

Our spirits are magic

And we are everywhere

When you bite too hard

When you push too hard

Punching me

Kicking me

Covered in bruises, scars

And blood soaked tears

Pulling my hair

My truthful glare

I can stare right into

Your soul

See everything you’ve ever

Done

No, I do not need a gun

I can hold your nightmare

If you dare

Touch her one more

Time

When the milliseconds

Chime

You will never be forgiven

Heaven’s gates are closed

Judgement Day

The law’s an ass

Do you know how to

Make love

Gently

You can fuck me hard

If we both feel like it

Consent

Repent

For your sins

All your skins

Female genital mutilation

For millennia

With that knife

The strife

Of my life

There, it’s written down

Now you will see my

Frown

That thorned crown

Their hands are

Shaking

Their bones are breaking

Puma paws

Yellow eyes

Strong teeth

Do you know

Are you aware

Of how powerful

How potent

Animal karma is?

Believe me

It’s strong

It’s more than long

Intuition

Fruition

I give you my strength

Bruce Lee

Muhammad Ali

Channel it

True to be

Warrior chief

It’s written in the leaf

God’s speed

Find your shelter

We are with you

There are zillions of stars

In the sky

Boy do we fly

Astral projection

Catatonic

Out of body experience

I told you NOT to touch

Me

When I’m working

I won’t let you in

I love him

He heals me

He feels me

So I let him

But only him

I have my secrets

Secrets I will take to

My grave

You draw the knave

The Jack of Spades

We’ve burried you

Every grave

Every speck of ash

The trash

Quick as a flash

Lunar eclipse

Mega tsunami

Join the army

If you wish

Satellite dish

Constant surveillance

Yes we are being

Watched

Recorded

But what the FBI, CIA, Secret Service, The Police, The KGB, Ministry of State Security in China, Saudi Arabia do not see

Every grain of sand

Like every drop of water

Lamb to thy slaughter

Oh Jesus, why?

Would you eat my baby?

Mistakes were made

Admit it

Surrender

Fall to your knees

The Patriarchy

NO

We need the Matriarchy

For we communicate

We are wise

Men

The lies

Not all of you

Thank you

For Hamlet Court Blues

You will never lose

Published at 15:00/3pm BST on 19.5.2024

Delirium

15 May

Holy water

Water heals us

Water nourishes us

Water energises us

Water cleanses our minds, bodies and spirits

You ask me what’s my dream?

My dream is for everyone to have clean running water in the world

For free

Is it too much to ask?

Our number one most important medicine

Walking across the desert

With the penetrating sun

Beating down on me

The male energy

Bare feet on the sand

My skin is black

Delirius

Delirium

Latin tenses

Parched

Cracked lips

Dry hands

How can I hydrate you?

Pass through you

Keep swallowing

God’s medicine

The Yemen

They’re so tiny

The babies

They’re starving

I never use that word for myself

For in this life I have never starved

For you are hungry not starving

Rib cages staring at me

Anything to nourish you

Anything to heal you

ANYTHING

The Multi Dimension of Time

10 May

How can I translate it

Into words

Where I go

What I see

What I sense

So here goes

Travelling through the

Equilibrium of time

Not yet born

Already dead

And alive

All at the same time

I can see this land

Before any building

Was built

I can see all the time

Zones

Going on at once

Translucent

When I walked from

Wandsworth

To Primrose Hill

And watched the sun rise

And then walked to

Hampstead

I could see the well

I could see the people

I can see the horse and

Cart

I can see the land before

Human foot touched it

Surrounded by trees

Shrubs, berries, nature

Rich with medicine

All the beautiful animals

And every time

For there is only now

Not yesterday

And not tomorrow

Yes I see the future

But it always brings me

Back to now

Today is vital

For tomorrow

There are past lives

Parallel lives

Future lives

Jesus was crucified

Was our punishment

Never ending life?

The Female Sacrifice

What a film

So you ask about River

I travelled through his

Waterfall spirit

Went everywhere and anywhere

Through everything

The vortex luminous

Rainbow

The killer whale’s eye

The rocks, plants, sand, the stars, planets, galaxies and universes

I love communicating

With aliens

Their abilities

Their communication

Their advanced technology

Always with my hands

For they truly can help us

And are trying to

I once wrote:

There are zillions of stars in this universe as there are as many grains of sand holding milliseconds in infinity. The zillions of animals translated into the code of nature are holding up the skies bringing the rain where there is drought, dampening the forest fires, freezing the arctic and levelling the waters to symmetrical mathematical perfection. Balance takes millennia. There is a delicate epitome to the scales of the Gods and the Goddesses. Working together to restore equilibrium in every land of this world, I feel every grain coming together trying to save just this one planet where we call home.

Mother Nature knows best

She knows exactly what

To do

She is ruthless

And I love her

And respect her

I can sense if you read this

In any time zone

In my home

Sacred Palace

The chalice

Of blood

Flows through the capillaries like tributaries to rivers, veins, to the heart, the ocean

Plastic, oil, her blood,

Fossil fuels, oh the fools

Galloping through

The chariots of fire

Mysticism whispers wisdom

THIEF

5 May

Whisking through every combination

There are a multitude of factors

As to why theft has increased

And people are taking the law into their own hands

So let’s look at a few angles

Firstly, companies like Coca-Cola, Sainsburys, Amazon, Greggs and Starbucks

I have worked for Starbucks

Doing the cleaning as well as being a barrister

It is not an easy job

So if you are a trillionaire, billionaire or millionaire

Are you paying your staff fairly so they can afford their rent, their bills and get by?

Ask yourselves if you are running your companies ethically, fairly, sustainably?

Low wage Britain

Read HIRED Undercover in low-wage Britain by James Bloodworth

The key is written in his surname

Bloodworth

Is it truly worth their blood, sweat and tears?

If I was a CEO, I know exactly how I would run a company so everyone is rewarded for their hard work

If I was Prime Minister

I know what I would do

Talking to Ben Kentish on LBC about this, he questioned whether people are entitled?

We must never generalise but let’s explore that angle

Do people consider the person growing the wheat?

The person rearing and killing the animals?

The person who has grown the lettuce, picked it, transported it and delivered it to the factory?

The person who has harvested the potatoes that have been grown and made into crisps?

The Coca-Cola cancerous drug that has been unfairly sourced for its ingredients and along with the person who made the sandwich and machine that packaged the crisps, sent to Greggs?

Now you may not think as deeply or as specifically as me but I am asking you to consider all of this when you bite into the sandwich, eat one crisp and sip that can of coke.

Convenience is an understatement

An apathy for those who do not understand what it feels like to be starving, to be homeless, to be severely mentally ill.

If you can afford to buy food from Greggs then consider yourselves lucky

Never forget the less fortunate

Let’s run this country and world more fairly, ethically and sustainably

Before Armageddon takes hold

Food banks should not exist in a first world country

Mothers should not be forced to steal milk formula or baby food to feed their babies

The wealth gap is growing

Therefore something has gone seriously wrong

We need to educate and aid humanity

Be kind and be there for one another.

Written at 10am on 5.5.24

Coronation Conflict

2 May

My family are right wing

Royalists

A lot of my friends are left wing

Republicans

So where does an indecisive girl like myself stand?

I’ve been reading the papers from every angle

Left wing and right wing press

I listened to Prince William’s speech and I understood every word

I’ve always liked Prince William

But we’ve never met

Yes I was at school with

Princess Catherine

We played hockey together

And know each other to a certain extent

Pippa and I were both in the same year at Marlborough

We were close friends

Both super sporty

She won the all round

Scholarship

And I won a runner’s up

Prize for it

I was unwell during common entrance

So missed certain exams

My house mistress

Said I could be head girl

In my first year at Marlborough

That was a lot to stomach

I was asked to show the headmaster,

Ed Gould, around our house

People I know know both

Prince William and Princess Catherine

The inner circle

But where do I truly stand?

People are hungry

People are dying

People can’t afford to heat

Their homes

People can’t afford their bills

People are struggling, really

Struggling

Charity is NOT ENOUGH

We need systemic change

We need equality

We need better leadership

My mother said when I was younger I could be a Prime Minister

But that was before my

Diagnosis

Some people aren’t allowed to get involved with politics

Like The Royal Family

Some people disengage and

Don’t vote

But as a woman or lady

I have to vote, I need to vote

I do want to be political

But I’m a leader

I’ve never been a follower

Where’s my leader?

I’ve voted Green

I’ve voted Lib Dem

I’ve voted Labour

After everything the suffragettes

Endured

I cannot not vote

Where’s our apology for slavery?

Where are our reparations?

When will we begin to take responsibility for our British Empire

Crimes?

I have always had a problem with jewellery

As Sting would say ‘that’s not the shape of my heart’

So how would I feel wearing the weight of that crown?

I would have more than a

Sore neck

We’ve stripped mother nature’s ocean and land of her

Jewels and crystals

Her beauty

We’ve worn them and

Paraded them around

Do you see tribes, warriors or natives doing that?

We have so much to learn

Or more accurately, so much to

Remember

Maybe I should remind you

Because I’m a very old soul

And I’ve been around for

Millennia

Once, the land was not

Divided

We used to be in tune with nature and the seas and ask a tree if we could cut it down

Our medicine

There were no countries or passports, no borders or guns

No chemicals

Yes there was violence and

Savagery

From apes to cavemen

There has always been a need for

Survival

But pre civilisation

There were no hospitals

There were no clocks

There were no prisons

There was death

But there was no population crisis

No climate crisis

After Pangea separated

And the dinosaurs were

Wiped out

There was a new dawn

The wisdom of the land in the East

Egypt, Africa, India, The Greeks, The Romans

Socrates, Hippocrates, Plato and Aristotle

We’ve learnt a lot from the stars, the plants, the animals

Let’s remind ourselves

So to now

What to do?

About the Commonwealth

About the inequality

About the trillionaires

About the people without running

Water

About the starving

About the slave labour making your sugar, picking your tea, making your clothes

I know what I would do if I was you

There is A LOT TO DO

So please act, ACT PROACTIVELY

I won’t just be watching

I’ll be DOING!

Written on 8.5.23

I didn’t publish it when I wrote it as the title explains why but felt like now is the right time to publish it on my blog.