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They used to say

Makes me smile

What if you’d never learnt the piano?

What if you’d never learnt the guitar?

Would you still sing?

You were born to sing

You were born to perform

But I write poetry

For now

So I thought I’d write a poem for you

As summer festivals flow

So do my dreams on this balcony

So…

I know I’m the luckiest girl by far

I know I’m lucky to have those special stars watching over me

Guiding me

Keeping me focused

When all I do is day dream

And float off the ground

They remind me of what’s important

Like

What would Freddie do?

All I know is that

He would use his time wisely

He misses her

And she misses him

She misses him

But he doesn’t miss her

But he does

But he misses him

You know the ones

But you don’t

It’s a fortitude of conference

A solitude of temperance 

A dance of unmistakeable mysticism

A caution of tragedy

A poet’s destitute

The power of tantrism

An energy of forgiveness

Missing the goals

Unravelling the tolls

Majestic in wisdom

Phoenix in blue flight

Indigo’s healing

And rainbow’s feeling

Dolphin’s trance

A mirror’s glance

Keep me singing in solitude

For I sing for the stars

The angels, the guides

No judicial judgement

Without the stage graced

Beauty tranced 

Without embrace

No more thinking

No more drinking

The tincture from your potent cup

Years lost

The waterfall’s tears

Cradling that child

Cuddles so mild

I’ve fallen at your feet

Heart skips a beat

When’s it’s pivotal and private

I do not need to know

Temple’s fate

Eclipses the lips

Time passes a distant glow

Boy, do I flow

You don’t wanna know

But you’ll always be

His girl

When you hit her

And it felt like a kiss

Was it pure bliss?

Because you didn’t hit him

So baby, you don’t win

BPD riddled in me

Fuckin’ around

With every boy in town

Pump me full of drugs

I can see the light in

Heaven

Even though I’ve

Surrounded myself with mugs

Throwin’ up the nourishment

The torment of your punishment

He loves you

Wrote a song about you

In capital letters

The way he does

Fragmented particles

Eyes fluttering

Butterfly spirit lives

Pacified patience

Scattered souls

Drifting like wood

In lonely oceans

Trust obliterated

By a self destructive force

To push you as far as oblivion

So you would want nothing

To do with me

To never see me

I would create that

Scenes of carnage

As love unfolds

And the fear created

In those veins

From a brain

Channelling another universe

Of sound

None of this was necessary

Obsession is an understatement

Which would never have

Happened

If I saw you

Chilled

Cool

Easy

Freedom

I see them

The people I fall for

My first love

My second love

They’re my friends

It’s easier, better

But they’re nothing like you

I guess I’ve never done anything like this before

You think you know

Me

That isn’t me

That is a manifestation

Of someone broken

Due to lack of connection

Starved of the energy

I need to keep going

Safety

You wouldn’t even understand

How dangerous it’s been

How scary it can get

Fear me?

Fear my words?

You wouldn’t if you knew me

If you were my friend

You might come to understand

Who I am

Not the person you think I am

‘Keep her at bay’

‘How do you deal with rejection?’

Boy, you do like to test us

But I don’t blame you

With that mind of yours

Look up to the wisdom of

The giraffe

She might make you laugh

Tiny Alice

Bouncing around

Through the letterbox

And down to the sea

Feel nothing for her

Good

Don’t you see how safe that is

For me

Ravished by the flames of desire

With a schism of a vicious tone

Calling me in 2017

With no idea of what had happened

Or where I’d been

Only your song and your life

The thought ‘she’ll love it’

Which I did

But the switch in your head

And the bitch in your bed

Lead you to tangle your own web

The mess on their plates

The weapons at the gates

Tearing through the flesh

The slap that feels like a kiss

Makes me understand the porn

You watch

I set the stage on fire

Tears keep pouring from my eyes

Because he loves me like a waterfall

Not you

You just want to be left alone

So I watch your life in slow motion

Grumpy old man

Who once had a plan

The dream

You make me wanna scream

The frustration of every word

Every reverb in these hospital corridors

But what was the point?

I think we’ve all forgotten

I’ve forgiven all of you

And myself

You still have a lot of work to do

When we don’t see each other

What is the point in life?

Honestly, truthfully

What is the fucking point?

All the thoughts

All their messages

All the decisions

All the reasons

You regret them all when you’re 72

But there we are

It’s just one of your fates

I told you to hate me

I can see you beating me up

In my visions

Leave you alone

But Will, he never will

Reach out to me

Why would the Knight of Swords

The fake and the liar

Want to face the truth

The beauty of youth

Leave it all in the past

Boy, she’s too fast

Slow as a snail

Magic luminous trail

Dancing and singing every word

Lost in dimensions

And different verbs

I’m being set free tomorrow

‘Her’

I think that’s how they refer to me

Why are you so obsessed with linear time?

Have you forgotten you’re already

Dead

The energy of lateral time

Might be what you’re looking for

It’ll bring the rain

So many scripts

So much editing

The trailers

But I am obsessed with the scores

The flaws

The laws

The doors

Every string

Every note

Perfectionistic

Across America

There is a lot going on

The global film industry

The Pentagon

The White House

Sensei

Every blade of grass

Palace secrets

Tibetan Time

I will never reveal

The whole truth

As some wisdom

Should remain with the stars

Teeth shattering

Ice all around me

Lips are blue

Toes are black

Survival

What a life

For yes I have frozen to death

Ate human

Eat me

What we do to survive

Frozen to the core

Eskimos

What millennia are we in?

The Ice Age

Lateral Time

2024

Why is my nickname PALICE?

For we need ICE

I can feel the ice caps melting

I can feel the earthquakes

I can feel the hurricanes

I can feel the tornadoes

I can feel the tsunamis

The Empress

My tarot

On my birthday

30th September 1983

In The Secret Language of Birthdays

Earth Goddess

Constantly trying to get the currents in the ocean to move again

Temperatures rising

Every time zone

Alone

In the killer whales

Telling me what’s going on

The Polar Bears

Stare

Alice

Mary

Palau

Stare

Your truthful glare

There

In the Amazon

Cutting down our trees

Our medicine

Our lungs

For what?

Soya

Cattle

Money

I will remind you what the chief said:

‘Only when the last tree has died and the last river has been poisoned and the last fish has been caught will we realise that we cannot eat money’

It is collective psychosis

On a colossal scale

Can you not see how you’ve been brainwashed?

To make money

To buy

To invest

To keep the unfair economy going

You have no idea how determined I am

How fearless I am

I know how determined some of you are

Paralympians

Olympians

I will write about you

I truly love your determination

So far not one doctor

Not one patient

Not one lawyer

Has reached out to help me

Are they scared?

Concerned the case would take over their lives?

Together we are stronger

Strength in numbers

When we join forces

We are extremely powerful

More powerful than any establishment

Rosa Parks

Martin Luther King

History has proven this time and time again

There are more of us than them

People being tortured

I am aware of them

People being raped

I am aware of them

People with guns to their heads

I am aware of them

I am aware of you all

So please join me

Help me

I will do the work

Teamwork makes the dream work

Whatever it takes to prove every case globally

You say you care

But do you care enough?

SAS

SIS

Everything you do never goes unnoticed

🙏

The Secret Language of Birthdays

Is like my Bible

May Twenty-Seventh

The Day of Driven Dedication

Happy Birthday

There is so much in this book

Astronomy

Astrology

Numerology

Tarot

Health

Advice

Meditation

Strengths

Weaknesses

I can’t tell you how much work I did last night

A&E

Suicidals

Alcoholics

NHS

On its knees

She bleeds

Paediatrics

Geriatrics

Every hospital

Everyone who’s sick

I can hear them

Sense them

Feel them

‘Save us’

Melancholy

Patch Adams is right

We need comedians

We need animal therapy

People need sanctuaries

It’s a total disgrace the Priory has become about money

The route of all evil

Yes I am fully aware of what money can buy

But money has taken over

Do the tribes have money?

No

Have you asked yourselves why?

This is collective psychosis

Sometimes I feel like the sanest woman on the planet

Ironic isn’t it

Holy Mary Mother of God

As River used to say

Trillionaires, billionaires, millionaires

We need to work together

Men and women

Equality

We need each other

Respect one another

Malaria

Wasps

They never used to exist

There is too much evil in this world

Armageddon

BRING IT ON

Questions

Answers

Problems

Solutions

Channel it

Tree medicine

Poppy plant

Coke plant

Powerful plants

Channel your medicine

Some say ‘chemo saved my life’

No, it prolonged your life

The amount of spirits around me is undeniable

Chemo killed some of them

Immune systems

Every time zone

2024

You know the score

God, I feel raw

Sentient animals

Sentient plants

The circle of life

The animal kingdom

Herbivores

Omnivores

Carnivores

Every blood group

During one of my psychoses

There were these children

With rare blood

They could breathe in carbon dioxide

And breathe out oxygen

They are trees

Do they exist?

Trust me, through my library of past lives

I’ve seen all kinds of things

You wouldn’t believe what I’ve witnessed

Facial analysis

Tongue analysis

Chinese medicine

George Monkhouse

Acupuncture

Pulse reading

Refracting you

8.2 billion people

Zillions of animals

Mating in heaven

Bringing about the new species

Under the ocean

Under the sand

No, you cannot touch them

No, you cannot reach them

No, you cannot name them

For there they are safe

Life

What a miracle

Diagnosis

Psychosis

But what are they experiencing?

What are their psychoses teaching them?

PLEASE, let them go through it

They are important

Vital processes

Teachings

Lessons

Just help them sleep if need be

Romeo and Juliet

That remedy

That tincture

Please, remember

Please

We know how to help people sleep

Benzodiazepines are highly addictive

They want you to be dependent on these medications

Addictions

Afflictions

Watching the markets

Like an eagle

Pharmaceuticals

It’s written in your cuticles

Psychopaths are running this world

I know what the Eskimos would do

Kill them instantly

With a bow and arrow

Maybe a knife

But I decided to take a different route

So they experience what they have inflicted

Psychosis

Eaten alive by rats

The plague

Why did you make me vague?

Damage my memory

Scar my body

When I could no longer remember my dance routines

I felt completely stupid

Couldn’t think straight

Couldn’t do my A-levels

Gained so much weight

Lost my balance

Sit with the geeks, the freaks, the goths, the lonely person

They created God’s wrath in me

It is the devil’s work at best

Money making machines

Every acidic chemical

How does it truly feel to be you?

Like The Sacklers

Bring in the snakes

Their worst nightmares

For they will suffer

Hell

You deserved it!

The amount of deaths

The amount of damage

And permanent deformities

Do you know suffering is worse than death

A blessed release

But they are telling my spirit their stories

I am a medium for a reason

What is your spirit animal?

Do you relate to a butterfly, a humming bird, a dragon fly, a whale, a silver back gorilla, a dinosaur, a tiger, a camel, a mule, a bee, a springbok, a deer, wild boar, a worm, a snail, their magic trail, a killer whale, a leopard, a cheater, giraffe, make me laugh

The ones in cages

Oh, the rages

I can feel their depression

Which we have created

Open the cages

Throw down your weapons

Hug each other

Love each other

Heal each other

The children going back to school

Please don’t leave anyone

Sitting alone

If the ring leader is a bully

She is probably struggling at home

Do not follow the crowd

Herd community

Get to know everyone in your class

Never leave anyone alone

If you see someone being picked on, put a stop to it

I give you my strength

Please, always be kind

For you never know what people are going through

If they are obese

They need love and healing

Guidance

Please do not judge them

You do not know their stories

Their feelings

Why feel sorry for an anorexic, bulimic

But mock the overweight?

We need to educate each other

On health

Diet

Greens

Alkalise

Listen to your body

Social media

Use it wisely

I can see how you all use it

It’s fascinating really

The likers

The watchers

The commenters

The ghost watchers

The stalkers

I know you all

I get it

But please trolls

The tolls of the lives you are hurting

You have to ask yourselves

What has happened in their lives

To act the way they do

Saving lives

Why would you like to be a doctor?

Would you like to save lives?

Would you like to be a musician?

An astronaut?

An environmentalist?

A script writer?

A poet?

A rapper?

An artist?

Why are they on the streets?

My heart beats

For I love you

I care

Psychopaths

Narcissists

My truthful glare

I am fearless

Tearless?

No

I cry

But my tears heal me

I care about your feelings

The disabled

Special needs

Carers

There are so many good people in this country

So many amazing people

Unsung heroes

Pride of Britain Awards

They make me cry so much

They make me so proud

To have chosen to be born in this country

For you do not earn

Much money

But everything you do never goes unnoticed

Everything you do is noted

God

The Gods

The Goddesses

Your spirit guides

Your angels

Maybe you need an exorcist

To rid yourself of that demon

That possession

God’s speed

Supernatural activity

I can feel it

I can sense it

We need it

Nature vs. Machine

The battle is on

Harmony

Choirs

The orchestra of life

I could write forever